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I finally found the motivation I needed to start blogging again. I had so many problems with my database, but thankfully for me, the guy at the Webhosting place loaded the backup from July, and it seems to be unaffected by the shitty spyware that infiltrated my SQL database. Yay!! Now I don’t have to fuck around trying to remove the affected entries! Why didn’t I just email my webhost in the first place? lol I’m such a cock. End geek ramble.

Let me try and organise this post into topics…

New House- So the move came and went, and I managed to escape with my bond intact. There was talk of VCAT but he’d have lost, so he decided against it. We moved into a 4 bedroom plus study double story house only minutes from our last residence. It’s a really great place and about a thousand times better than any of the other places we looked at before here. I’m so glad that we didn’t get any of the other places we applied for, because all of them were far too small for 4 chicks, 2 cats and a dog. We’ve got heaps of room here for everyone without being on top of eachother, so it’s worked out really fortunately, given that as soon as we moved in, Loz, Jo and Squish all got boyfriends! We’d never have been able to fit 7 ppl in any of the other houses we saw.

You can see Chloe Dog and Muffy cat chillin on the couch in the loungeroom above.

Mum- It was my Mum’s 50th Birthday at the end of July and to celebrate the milestone, she threw herself out of a plane. Personally, I’m more a cake kinda person, but Mum had an awesome time and she loved it and she wants to do it again and again. Here’s a link to the video of the day on Youtube.

Medication/Anxiety/Depression- I changed medications just over a month ago. Coming off my old Anti-Depressants (Aropax/Paxil) was an absolute nightmare. I spent weeks feeling sick and gross, wishing I was a bear so I could go into hibernation for the duration. My new medication seems to be okay, but I haven’t worked out the right dosage yet. I mean I feel okay, but there’s very few peaks or dips. I also have trouble dealing with feeling frustrated…I’ve either snapped or just totally isolated myself. Maybe it’s not the right medication for me, but I want to give it a good go before I discount it. Perhaps I just need the dosage tweaked a little bit? I’m going to speak to my doctor about it this week.
In other medical news, I also had my Implanon replaced. I’ve sorta broken out in zits since I had it put in 2 or 3 months ago, but apart from that, it’s been smooth sailing on the contraceptive front.

Love/Sex- I don’t even know what to write in this bit. If I had a clue, I’d tell you. There is some sex though, which is always good. After waiting over a year, it was good to get back in the saddle. He’s a nice guy and we have fun together, but our hearts are both elsewhere.

Other Stuff- I’m going to Mildura to visit Nate in a week and a bit. I haven’t seen him since we moved into the new house, so I have missed him heaps and am looking forward to heading up there and hanging out for a few days. I’m totally hanging to go fishing.

That’s about all I have at the moment, but it feels good to start writing again.

Backdating

September 7th, 2008 | 1 Comment | Posted in Depression and Anxiety, Treatment
Blogged Aug 1, 2008
I haven’t blogged in ages coz I’ve got some fucking malicious fucking thing going on in mysql database. I don’t really have the motivation to bother fixing it at the moment. But I have missed having somewhere to vent, and fuck knows I need to vent at the moment.

I’m coming off my Aropax. I went from 40mg to 20mg and then weaned off them. This is my 2nd day completely unmedicated. In 2 days time, I start taking my new meds, Luvox. Coming off Aropax has been super crap. I’ve felt sick for the last 8 days. I can’t stop vomiting and I feel fuzzy and gross and hungover. I know it’s only temporary, but man, it’s a shit way to spend  2 weeks.

Add to that the fact that I just feel so ridiculously beige and I’m obviously about as much fun as wallpaper glue.

I just want my blog back up and for my medication to work and for everything to be okay between me and James and to not feel like I want to curl up in the dark and cry for hours.

It’s been a long time since I’ve felt this low. And I know that it’s mostly related to the medication thing, but the emotions are still real and it’s hard to ignore them.

Blogged Aug 13, 2008
I’m feeling pretty average tonight. I mean, I felt okay during the day and the last few days even…but I’ve had these moments where I just feel inexplicably average. If I’m honest, the feeling I’m trying to avoid describing is loneliness, but who wants to whinge about being lonely. I don’t normally feel lonely but with Loz, Jo and Squish all having found a boyfriend in the last two months, it’s increasingly harder not to recognise that it’s been a long time since I had a relationship of my own. I’m sure if there was no one I wanted to be with, then being alone would be easy easier, perhaps? But when that’s not the case, it really does suck the big one.

As for the medication, I’m feeling a lot better physically. This is my 3rd hurl free day in as many weeks and god, it’s such a relief. I really was feeling so horrible physically…restless, tired, nauseated, spacey, all day every day for 3 weeks. Mum and Lauren were really good to me throughout the whole ordeal, I’m really lucky to have their support.

I’m too beige to write any more at the moment, and I have to be up early for the Plumber to come and fix the dishwasher so I’m heading to bed.

One More Sleep

May 30th, 2008 | 1 Comment | Posted in Just Stuff

If this week sucked any harder, it would be a porno sponsored by Hoover. Moving sucks, and I’d tell you all about it if you hadn’t heard the same story about a dozen times before! Seriously, how the fuck do I acquire so much shit? Thankfully, the Landlord let us have the keys a few days early, so we’ve been able to take boxes and bags over the new house, but it’s not until tomorrow morning that we’ll have all the furniture in there. It’s great that we didn’t have to do it all on one day, but when you do it over the course of a week, it’s easy to get over the excitement of moving.

After we get all the new crap to the new house, I’m coming back here to start cleaning with Nate (who has decided to grace us with his presence lol) and the rest of the girls are going to put the house together.
Until we get a phone number on Tuesday (Optus Wireless homephone ftw!), I can’t organise any Internets so I might be away for a while. Hopefully, I’ll be able to find somewhere to check it til the crisis is averted.

Btw, a note to you… I thought you’d have written by now? Or is this it?

I have to be up early tomorrow but I might be able to update with some photos tomorrow. If not, I’ll catch you all soon :)

Up and Down

May 25th, 2008 | 1 Comment | Posted in Just Stuff

We went and signed the lease on Saturday. You can’t imagine what a relief it is to have found a place and settled the whole living situation out. This week will be a busy one, packing and trying to offload all the shit I can. I’m gonna try and travel as lightly as I can.

Mystery Illness still plagues me. Really bad cough + fatigue + hurling once/twice daily= Miserable Prue.
When I go and get my Implanon taken out on Thursday, I’ll try and make an appointment to see the doctor about it. I’ve gotta go to Monash to have it taken out under ultrasound because it’s the initial insertion was too deep which sucks, but small price to pay given it’s been such an awesome contraceptive. Viva la Implanon! I’m going to have another shoved thru my arm next week sometime.

Fuck, I just realised I’m probably going to have a bitchin sore arm when I’m moving house on the weekend! Boooo! Hiss!!

I finally got around to changing the blonde foils in my hair to red. It looks so much better! Between being sick the past 3 weeks and feeling super self conscious about my hair, I’ve felt fairly average lately. Plus, I had this huge argument with James during the week so yeah, the past week or so has had it ups and downs.

I told you Collie Cat came home yes? The bloody knob was in my neighbours garage! She ran in there to take cover from the rain…which intrigues me, given that she has a garage here that she could lurk in all day if it took her fancy! She’s lucky I love her to death, coz otherwise she’d drive me crazy.

Anyways, I have stuff to move to the new house in the morning, so I gotta hit the sack.

Dude, where’s my cat?

May 17th, 2008 | 1 Comment | Posted in Just Stuff

It’s early and I haven’t been able to sleep because Collie Cat didn’t come home last night. I hate it when she pulls these late night capers because it makes me feel like an arsehole pet owner and super irresponsible.
I’m sure she’s probably taken cover somewhere to avoid the inclement weather or is stuck in someones garage and will be home for breakfast soon enough, or at least that’s the way it’d better go or I’ll be an unhappy and pedantic camper.

The last few weeks I’ve been really sick. For over a week, I couldn’t keep any food down at all. It was odd…I wouldn’t feel nauseous, I’d just get the overwhelming sensation of wanting to be sick. Combine that with being super fatigued and the kind of coughing that would put an Emphysema patient to shame and that’s been my life for the last 2 weeks. Thankfully the hurling has ceased, but the cough is lingering and I’m flat out knackered at the moment.

Lucky for me, today brought with it good news. We have finally found a place to live! It totally fell into our laps and the Landlady adores us! It’s in Aspendale Gardens…2 storey, 4 bedrooms plus study, ducks that live in the ceiling and blow down hot and cold air, a freakin dishwasher and would you believe, she’s cool with pets!? Fuck, it’s such a relief to have finally found somewhere. I’ve been so stressed out here the past 3 months. Money issues, problems with our Landlord generally being a cunt…that sorta thing. Plus, house hunting was honestly driving me to tears. Any time we found a place that was suitable, it was out of our price range, out of someones comfort zone for proximity to work/family/station…and the houses we did see and apply for, we were beaten out by families and couples. It really has just been a fairly shitty month or so.

So finding a house is one thing on the list crossed off. The others items are now packing and moving (if you know me, you’ll know what a freakin hoarder I am!) and getting the bond back here which I’ve heard from previous tenants could be hard work. This is meant to be in 2 weeks time.

You know what else will be happening in 2 weeks time? I’ll be coming off my medication. Won’t that be a barrell of fun! Oh and I also have to have my wisdom teeth removed on June 19th. So you know, all in all, I’m shitting my pants with stress going to cope wonderfully with all of these issues. *grumble*

Anyway, I’m off to bed to wait for Collie cat to come home.

x

Houston…

May 17th, 2008 | No Comments | Posted in Just Stuff

WE HAVE A HOUSE!

that is all.

Why My Mum is the Most Rockin Muttha Ever

May 11th, 2008 | 1 Comment | Posted in Parents, Picture Posts, Things that are awesome

1. She laughs at fart jokes. And I mean, really heartily laughs. Sometimes she laughs so hard that tears stream down her face. How can you not love that?

2. She dances like Mick Jagger. It doesn’t matter where mum is, or what she’s wearing… if she hears the intro riffs to Satisfaction, she begins to morph into Mick Jagger. Her lips get all pouty and big, she pulls her head into her neck, her jaw locks up and her eyebrow rises up slightly and she struts up and down and around in circles. I’ve seen her do this naked at home, clothed at the shops, in the car… She rocks out as the Jagman.

3. Sometimes, when she’s lost her mind completely, she’ll pull her jumper over her head and scream “bunghole, bunghole, aoijaslkdjafosijdlakjsldkj” Then she laughs and says how much she enjoys the “Itchy and Scratchy Bum” show…. Lucky for me, I can decipher that she means she likes “Beavis and Butthead”.

4. If you need advice, she’s got some. And you can ask her about anything. My friends regularly come to her for all kinds of advice, but mostly for the sex and love kinda stuff. I love that she always had advice for people, but never in that pushy shove it in your face way.

5. She will whip your arse at Trivial Pursuit.

6. She Blogs!

7. She knows the backstory to just about everyone I’m friends with online and remembers your names! That says 2 things… one; Geekiness is a generic trait and two: we’re both legends with too much time on our hands

8. She doesn’t totally hate the idea of the “MAMA” tattoo I want!

9. She’s always on my side, regardless of the situation. That’s fierce. I love that about her!

10. She always makes me laugh… even when we’re driving eachother insane, we laugh.

mawsy

Happy Mothers Day Mama.
Rock out with your Cock out.

<3 Pruey

Fuck Landlords In The Arse

May 6th, 2008 | 1 Comment | Posted in Annoyed, Aspendale, Sick

I feel like shit at the moment. I have this cold/flu thing that has been circulating amongst my friends and it’s totally wiped me out. All I’ve wanted to do is sleep…yes, even more than usual. People always look at me strangely when I say this, but surely I’m not the only person who’s skin hurts when they are unwell? Like, my skin is so sensitive and it aches so badly when I’m crook, but every time I’ve told people that they look at me like I’m the Bearded Lady’s even beardier and more portly conjoined twin. I just get that “WTF?” look.

If I wasn’t feeling so average, I’d be excited to tell you that we finally got a heater today! Yeah, so it took 6 months to come but it’s here…I think they were hoping we’d have left before they had to actually replace it. But at the rate we’re going, we could be here right up until the last possible day. Rental inspections are at ridiculous times like 1.40pm-1.50pm on a Monday, so it’s hard for everyone to see the properties, and even if they have been suitable, landlords can be so fussy now that they don’t take the first eligible applicant…they can pick and chose exactly who they want coz demand outweighs supply. It’s insane. The prices we’re looking at paying are twice what it would have cost a year or 2 ago. Shithouse.

Anyway, that’s about all I can tell you at the moment. I’m too knackered to write about anything else tonight. Stay tuned.